Gembira Tapi Sedih

Assalamualaikum..

Pernah tak rasa macamtu? Gembira tapi dalam masa yang sama sedih.

12.03.2015 (Khamis) : Harini menerima berita yang mengejutkan dan agak menggembirakan..menang kes ke atas Defendan dan mahkamah putuskan bayaran tertentu kepada Plaintif. Gembira kerana kebenaran dan keadilan akhirnya berpihak pada saya. Allah maha adil. Yang bersalah tetap bersalah dan lebih baik mengakui kesalahan dari cuba menegakkan benang yang basah. Lambat-laun akan memakan diri. Namun, jauh di sudut hati tetap berasa sedih dan kesal kerana pengakhirannya harus begini. Mungkin keadaan akan menjadi lebih baik sekiranya tanpa campur tangan pihak2 yang tidak sepatutnya. Campur tangan pihak2 yang hanya mengeruhkan lagi keadaan dan menambah lagi bara yang terpendam. Adalah lebih baik kami diberi ruang dan peluang berhadapan masalah dengan tenang dan mencari jalan penyelesaian terbaik. Semoga yang berkenaan insaf dan mendapat pengajarannya. Janganlah kita berterusan menganiaya insan lain dan menafikan hak mereka yang berhak. Kita rampas hak seseorang..suatu hari Allah akan tarik hak kita pula.

Saya percaya setiap yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya. Ya Allah..Kau kuatkanlah semangatku dan tabahkanlah hatiku. Semoga mendung semalam segera berlalu. Hadirlah dikau wahai Pelangi..

~Bonda Aisya'Sara~

Chicken Pox

Malam jumaat 24 Januari 2015 bonda perasan badan kakak start naik bintik merah kat bahu dan tangan. Kenapa ye. oh mungkin nyamuk kot. Kita letak mopiko jela kakak ye bagi surut merah tu. Keesokan hari tengok bintik merah makin naik kat badan ..leher, belakang telinga, perut, belakang badan.. ish tak boleh jadi ni. Risau pulak bonda. Jadi bonda whatsapp bos bitau akan lewat ke ofis sebab nak pergi klinik dulu. Tapi sebelum pi klinik singgah gak jap ofis dulu semata2 nak hantar emel ke MIA. Kat ofis, staff bonda n kawan2 ramai yang cakap chicken pox ni. Baik bawak gi Klinik. Gatal ni nanti.. huhu


Sampai Klinik Presint 9, Putrajaya, doctor sahkan memang kakak chicken pox dan perlu dikuarantin. terpaksa la EL bonda ari jumaat tu. Bila anak sakit ibu yang susah hati. Yela mana nak kerja mana nak jaga anak. Bonda mnggu depan tu pulak ada naziran. Akhirnya buat keputusan bonda cuti rehat seminggu untuk jaga kakak. Keja keja jgk..tp anak pun sama penting. Sian kakak. Well cabaran jaga kakak sakit chicken pox ni. Sebab aktif dia sama je mcm tak sakit. Makan pun selera, bertambah.

Ada kawan bagi petua, nak bg cepat keluar semua chicken pox dia bagi minum air kelapa. Bonda try la jgk bagi kakak minum, tapi kakak tak suka. Bawak klinik semula doc bagi ubat antivirus, ubat gatal dan ubat sapu calamine lotion.

Lagi petua, untuk kurangkan gatal, bagi anak tido atas daun semambu dan daun semambu tu sendiri bule direbus dan airnye dibuat mandi. Daun semambu tu pun bonda tak kenal. Tapi syukur. Staff bonda yang tolong amikkan dan hantar rumah. Bila tnya harga berapa..dia jawab..ishh xpe. daun ni petik je. ooo.. ok. terima kasih la. Terharu bonda. Kadang2 rasa sayu..org lain lebih prihatin dan lebih risaukan keadaan anak bonda dari org yang sepatutnya.. Anggaplah ini bahagian dan rezki anak2 bonda. InsyaAllah selagi bonda masih bernyawa bonda akan sentiasa cuba bahagiakan kalian.


Love ~ Bonda Aisya'Sara~

Welcome 2015

Jumpa di FB seorang teman. Welcome 2015.
~Bonda Aisya'Sara~

Counting Days

Masuk hari ni dah 22 hari bonda tak jumpa srikandi bonda. Aduhaii rindunya hati bonda ni tak terkira. Tanpa khabar, tanpa berita, tanpa suara.. Sunyi sgt. Balik rumah rasa kosong. Takde gelak tawa kakak dan adik. 3 minggu satu tempoh masa yang lama buat bonda. Bonda jatuh sakit sebab terlalu rindukan kakak dan adik. RIndu nak gurau2..rindu nak menyanyi..rindu nak menari..rindu nak baca buku sama-sama. Srikandi bonda nilah penyeri..kawan baik dan juga kawan gaduh. Tanpa kalian hidup tak bermakna. Tak sabar tunngu kepulangan srikandi bonda. Bonda takut sangat kalau kakak dan adik lupakan bonda bila lama berjauhan dengan bonda.. Jaga diri k sayang. Doa bonda sentiasa mengiringi anakanda.

#RINDU

~ R.I.N.D.U ~

Merinduimu anakanda
Wahai Srikandi Bonda

Lots of Love ~Bonda~

"LET IT GO" Lyrics

"Let It Go"


The snow glows white on the mountain tonight
Not a footprint to be seen
A kingdom of isolation,
And it looks like I’m the queen.

The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside
Couldn’t keep it in, heaven knows I tried

Don’t let them in, don’t let them see
Be the good girl you always have to be
Conceal, don’t feel, don’t let them know
Well, now they know

Let it go, let it go
Can’t hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn away and slam the door

I don’t care
What they’re going to say
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway

It’s funny how some distance
Makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me
Can’t get to me at all

It’s time to see what I can do
To test the limits and break through
No right, no wrong, no rules for me
I’m free

Let it go, let it go
I am one with the wind and sky
Let it go, let it go
You’ll never see me cry

Here I stand
And here I'll stay
Let the storm rage on

My power flurries through the air into the ground
My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around
And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast
I’m never going back,
The past is in the past

Let it go, let it go
And I'll rise like the break of dawn
Let it go, let it go
That perfect girl is gone

Here I stand
In the light of day
Let the storm rage on,
The cold never bothered me anyway

Srikandi Beta

This song (Arjuna Beta change to Srikandi Beta) dedicated to my beloved srikandi..Aisya'Sara. Bonda luv both of u soo much.

**Srikanda Beta**

Takkan kubiarkan walau ribut
menyentakmu yang tidur..
Datang petir menyambar
Jengking dan ular..
Bonda takkan berundur

Nyamanlah Srikandi Beta
Mimpikan yang indah saja..
Nanti bila kau buka mata
Semua tak serupa.

Kan ada satu ketika..
Kau tak tahu mana nak pergi
Jalan betul anakanda
Tak jelas mata..
Ambil yang sarat duri

Hiduplah Srikandi Beta
Biarkan jasad yang luka
Selama Tuhanmu ada
Takkan engkau tercela

Ngeri..tak terbayang mata
Bonda takkan ada sentiasa
Namti.. moga kau tak lupa
Bonda memujukmu anakanda

Hiduplah Srikandi Beta
Biarkan jasad yang luka
Selama Tuhanmu ada..
Takkan engkau tercela

Nyamanlah Srikandi Beta
Mimpikan yang indah saja
Nanti bila kau buka mata
Semua tak serupa..

20 Marriage Tips Everyone Needs to Know

Below are 20 wise marriage tips from a man that was recently divorced. You wouldn’t normally think that a divorced man would give good advice on being a husband, but this man has been through enough hardship to know what is worth fighting for:

MARRIAGE ADVICE I WISH I WOULD HAVE HAD:

Obviously, I’m not a relationship expert. But there’s something about my divorce being finalized this week that gives me perspective of things I wish I would have done different… After losing a woman that I loved, and a marriage of almost 16 years, here’s the advice I wish I would have had…

1) Never stop courting. Never stop dating. NEVER EVER take that woman for granted. When you asked her to marry you, you promised to be that man that would OWN HER HEART and to fiercely protect it. This is the most important and sacred treasure you will ever be entrusted with. SHE CHOSE YOU. Never forget that, and NEVER GET LAZY in your love.

2) PROTECT YOUR OWN HEART. Just as you committed to being the protector of her heart, you must guard your own with the same vigilance. Love yourself fully, love the world openly, but there is a special place in your heart where no one must enter except for your wife. Keep that space always ready to receive her and invite her in, and refuse to let anyone or anything else enter there.

3) FALL IN LOVE OVER and OVER and OVER again. You will constantly change. You’re not the same people you were when you got married, and in five years you will not be the same person you are today. Change will come, and in that you have to re-choose each other everyday. SHE DOESN’T HAVE TO STAY WITH YOU, and if you don’t take care of her heart, she may give that heart to someone else or seal you out completely, and you may never be able to get it back. Always fight to win her love just as you did when you were courting her.

4) ALWAYS SEE THE BEST in her. Focus only on what you love. What you focus on will expand. If you focus on what bugs you, all you will see is reasons to be bugged. If you focus on what you love, you can’t help but be consumed by love. Focus to the point where you can no longer see anything but love, and you know without a doubt that you are the luckiest man on earth to be have this woman as your wife.

5) IT’S NOT YOUR JOB TO CHANGE OR FIX HER… your job is to love her as she is with no expectation of her ever changing. And if she changes, love what she becomes, whether it’s what you wanted or not.

6) TAKE FULL ACCOUNTABILITY for your own emotions: It’s not your wife’s job to make you happy, and she CAN’T make you sad. You are responsible for finding your own happiness, and through that your joy will spill over into your relationship and your love.

7) NEVER BLAME your wife If YOU get frustrated or angry at her, it is only because it is triggering something inside of YOU. They are YOUR emotions, and your responsibility. When you feel those feelings take time to get present and to look within and understand what it is inside of YOU that is asking to be healed. You were attracted to this woman because she was the person best suited to trigger all of your childhood wounds in the most painful way so that you could heal them… when you heal yourself, you will no longer be triggered by her, and you will wonder why you ever were.

Allow your woman to JUST BE. When she’s sad or upset, it’s not your job to fix it, it’s your job to HOLD HER and let her know it’s ok. Let her know that you hear her, and that she’s important and that you are that pillar on which she can always lean. The feminine spirit is about change and emotion and like a storm her emotions will roll in and out, and as you remain strong and unjudging she will trust you and open her soul to you… DON’T RUN-AWAY WHEN SHE’S UPSET. Stand present and strong and let her know you aren’t going anywhere. Listen to what she is really saying behind the words and emotion.

9) BE SILLY… don’t take yourself so damn seriously. Laugh. And make her laugh. Laughter makes everything else easier.

10) FILL HER SOUL EVERYDAY… learn her love languages and the specific ways that she feels important and validated and CHERISHED. Ask her to create a list of 10 THINGS that make her feel loved and memorize those things and make it a priority everyday to make her feel like a queen.

11) BE PRESENT. Give her not only your time, but your focus, your attention and your soul. Do whatever it takes to clear your head so that when you are with her you are fully WITH HER. Treat her as you would your most valuable client. She is.

12) BE WILLING TO TAKE HER SEXUALLY, to carry her away in the power of your masculine presence, to consume her and devour her with your strength, and to penetrate her to the deepest levels of her soul. Let her melt into her feminine softness as she knows she can trust you fully.

13) DON’T BE AN IDIOT…. And don’t be afraid of being one either. You will make mistakes and so will she. Try not to make too big of mistakes, and learn from the ones you do make. You’re not supposed to be perfect, just try to not be too stupid.

14) GIVE HER SPACE… The woman is so good at giving and giving, and sometimes she will need to be reminded to take time to nurture herself. Sometimes she will need to fly from your branches to go and find what feeds her soul, and if you give her that space she will come back with new songs to sing…. (okay, getting a little too poetic here, but you get the point. Tell her to take time for herself, ESPECIALLY after you have kids. She needs that space to renew and get re-centered, and to find herself after she gets lost in serving you, the kids and the world.)

15) BE VULNERABLE… you don’t have to have it all together. Be willing to share your fears and feelings, and quick to acknowledge your mistakes.

16) BE FULLY TRANSPARENT. If you want to have trust you must be willing to share EVERYTHING… Especially those things you don’t want to share. It takes courage to fully love, to fully open your heart and let her in when you don’t know i she will like what she finds… Part of that courage is allowing her to love you completely, your darkness as well as your light. DROP THE MASK… If you feel like you need to wear a mask around her, and show up perfect all the time, you will never experience the full dimension of what love can be.

17) NEVER STOP GROWING TOGETHER… The stagnant pond breeds malaria, the flowing stream is always fresh and cool. Atrophy is the natural process when you stop working a muscle, just as it is if you stop working on your relationship. Find common goals, dreams and visions to work towards.

18) DON’T WORRY ABOUT MONEY. Money is a game, find ways to work together as a team to win it. It never helps when teammates fight. Figure out ways to leverage both persons strength to win.

19) FORGIVE IMMEDIATELY and focus on the future rather than carrying weight from the past. Don’t let your history hold you hostage. Holding onto past mistakes that either you or she makes, is like a heavy anchor to your marriage and will hold you back. FORGIVENESS IS FREEDOM. Cut the anchor loose and always choose love.

20) ALWAYS CHOOSE LOVE. ALWAYS CHOOSE LOVE. ALWAYS CHOOSE LOVE. In the end, this is the only advice you need. If this is the guiding principle through which all your choices is governed, there is nothing that will threaten the happiness of your marriage. Love will always endure.

In the end MARRIAGE isn’t about Happily ever after. It’s about work. And a commitment to grow together and a willingness to continually invest in creating something that can endure eternity. Through that work, the happiness will come.

Marriage is life, and it will bring ups and downs. Embracing all of the cycles and learning to learn from and love each experience will bring the strength and perspective to keep building, one brick at a time.

These are lessons I learned the hard way. These are lessons I learned too late.

But these are lessons I am learning and committed in carrying forward. Truth is, I LOVED being married, and in time, I will get married again, and when I do, I will build it with a foundation that will endure any storm and any amount of time.

If you are reading this and find wisdom in my pain, share it those those young husbands whose hearts are still full of hope, and with those couples you may know who may have forgotten how to love. One of those men may be like I was, and in these hard earned lessons perhaps something will awaken in him and he will learn to be the man his lady has been waiting for.

The woman that told him ‘I do’, and trusted her life with him, has been waiting for this man to step up.

If you are reading this and your marriage isn’t what you want it to be, take 100% responsibility for YOUR PART in marriage, regardless of where your spouse is at, and commit to applying these lessons while there is time.

MEN- THIS IS YOUR CHARGE : Commit to being an EPIC LOVER. There is no greater challenge, and no greater prize. Your woman deserves that from you.

Be the type of husband your wife can’t help but brag about.

Source

INTERNET ~ Credit To The Original Author ~

Hadiah Bonda - Happy Birthday Sayang!

24 Mei 2013 - Genap setahun usia anak2 bonda. Doa bonda sentiasa mengiringi langkahmu nak. Semoga kalian menjadi anak yang solehah, cemerlang dunia akhirat,dikurniakan kesihatan yang baik, dan bahagia selalu. Maafkan bonda kerana tak dapat memberikan kebahagian sebenarnya bagi kalian berdua namun bonda sentiasa mencuba menjadi ibu yang terbaik. Walaupun adakala kita terpaksa berjauhan,itu bukan kehendak bonda. Namun, bonda tak pernah melupakan kalian..walau sedetik pun. Gambar dan kenangan bersama kalian sentiasa menghiasi ruang hati bonda. Setiap masa setiap saat bonda merindui kalian. Sesungguhnya kehadiran kalian berdua adalah anugerah terindah yang sangat berharga. Terima kasih anak2 kerana menjadi pelengkap dan sumber kekuatan bonda. Bonda will always love both of u..no matter what. I can loose anything but not you. Always remember that..Pleasee.

Kenangan Dari Bonda untuk Anak-anak Kesayangan Bonda. Time flies.. One year already.

May's Birthday Celebration

Assalamualaikum dan Salam Sejahtera,

Sebenarnya dah lama nak update n3 ni..tp bizis bodys sangat..xsempat. Banyak perkara lain yang perlu diutamakan dan didahulukan.So akhirnya harini baru tertunai hajat nk update ni..Walaupun da basi.. sy update jugak untuk kenangan sy dan anak2..saya tak nak masa yang saya lalui dengan anak2 terbiar dan dilupakan begitu saje. Setiap masa setiap detik amat berharga dan terlalu manis untuk dikenang. Biar ianya menjadi memori indah dalam hidup saya.

Pada 19 May 2013 (Ahad) sambutan besday in advance 4 my twins daughter. Ini semua planning adik lelaki saya yang kedua..mastermind nye dia la..bkn ape kebetulan besday dia pun bulan Mei juga so dia yang beria2 nak sambut sekali..Excited lebih. So, kesimpulannya kitorang kumpulkan sume dlm family terdekat yang lahir bulan Mei sambil wat family gathering. Anak buah saya Adik Ziqry lahir 12 Mei, Adik lelaki saya si 'mastermind'nya 18 Mei and my luvly daughters pada 24 Mei. Kiranye wiwin sambut birthday in advance la.

Sambutan simple je tp happening.. Kami buat keputusan sambut di The Manhattan Fish Market, Alamanda Putrajaya. Budget kongsi adik-beradik. Si mastermindnye kedekut..dia yg excited ingatkan nk belanja sume orang tp rupenya mintak tongtong..sabor je la. Kebetulan ada promo The Manhattan Fish Market di Groupon tu..so xde la mahal sgt. Sib baik makan pun sedap. memang puas hati la. 1st time makan so next time bule la mkn lg. Berbaloi-baloi.

Perancangannya..sume orang berkumpul di rumah saya di Putrajaya. Seronok anak buah dapat berjumpa wiwin. Yela..lama sgt xjumpa. Tapi wiwin not in a good mood.. tengokla sedey je muka. Kitorg booking event kul 3.00 petang. Jadi, byk masa juga la melepak di rumah saya dulu. Lepas solat zuhur..kami terus bergerak ke Alamanda. Jarak dari rumah ke Alamanda dekat je..dlm 10 min sampai dah. Xde nak rushing pun. relax dan santai..

Muke sedey je adik sara..baru bangun tido..xde mood.

Kakak Aisya yang sporting..bergurau dengan Abang Zaquan

Alalalaa..nape dik..sedey je muka ni..Abg Ziqry tido..xleh men2 dgn Adik Sara

Da sampai, kita order dulu ye..actually da order seperti promo groupon tp saje tengok menu tambahan yang ade n order air..hehe

Sementara menunggu makanan sampai..kita potong kek dulu. Abang Zaquan yang lebih excited. Anak-anak bonda macam xde perasaan je.

Cake sponsored by my sista..EijaZaquanZiqry @ Sweetmama @ mamakerry.. TQ tahun depan leh la sponsor lagi.

Jom potong kek

Abang Zaquan yang over dari Adik Ziqry dan Aisya'Sara..hehe

Makanan da sampai..ini antara menu yang diorder..menggiurkan x? jom makan time. nyum nyum.. Alamak tiba2 rasa lapar plak ;)

Alhamdulillah, Majlis berjalan lancar dan anak2 bonda xbuat perangai. behave je dat day. Tapi bonda xkenyang sgt la..yela sibuk melayan anak.Klu sorang anak bule tahan lagi..tp ni twins. Xmenang tangan dibuatnya. Orang len makan..bonda kena suap anak2 dulu. Bonda siap2 da bawak bekal dari rumah. Bonda masak bubur tuk wiwin. Risau anak2 lapar. Selesai bagi makan anak.. bonda makan ape yang ditinggalkan je. Rasa-rasa jela. Xpela yang penting kena bagi anak kenyang dulu. lagipun anak2 yang ingin diraikan. Sebelum balik kami bergambar satu famili dulu..

Kesimpulannya..best dan next year kna wat lg mcmni.. the more the merrier..

Lepas selesai semuanya..potong kek sudah, makan sudah, bergambar sudah..kitorg round satu alamanda pulak. Bawak anak2 jenjalan. Happykan anak2.. walaupun anak2 masih kecil dan belum faham ape2, sebagai ibu..kita sentiasa inginkan yang terbaik untuk anak2.. Bonda sayang anak2 bonda. Jangan tinggalkan bonda lagi ye sayang..Mmuaahhh..muahhh.. luv u both.

P/s: Gambar dan jalan cerita ehsan mamakerry blogspot..heheh.. sowii.. ;p